I was at worked this sunday.
Trying to pretend that nothing happen.
But I keep glancing at my watch.
Waiting for the time to pass before I can call my mom.

10.35 am exactly, I called my mom. Asking her about my baby cousin.
My mom said she was beautiful. Chubby, just like her 1 year old older brother.
Eyes like her 4 year old sister.
But I never get to know whether she cry as loud as her brother or headstrong like her sister.

I lost my baby cousin at 8.30 that morning. Without seeing her at all, without touching her delicate skin. coz my aunt give birth to a stillborn baby.

When my mom told me about her description, I couldnt help but break down and cry.
Cry because I couldnt give my support to my aunt. Cry because I never get to see my baby cousin. Cry because I couldnt be there. Cry because thats the only thing I can do that time.

Nur Ain` Firzana. Isn`t that a nice name? I couldnt get to call her that in the future. I couldnt even play with her like I did with her siblings.

My mom and sisters told me what happen when I get back from work.

My cousin (her sister), keep on asking why her sister have to sleep there (cemetery)?
Why cant she go home with us? She was sobbing as she said that. A 4 year old.
Eventhough I wasnt there, i could imagine her and it brought tears to my eyes. Even now, I still cry thinking about it. I dont think I`ll get over her deathh easily.

We are close, very close to her family. It affect my badly. All I could do now is stare at her photo. A pic of remembrance taken by my sister. With her blueback lips and yellowish skin.

Just looking at it, make me wish I could turn back time. The time where everybody was at the hospital. The time where everybody say their first and last goodbye to Nur Ain` Firzana.

Im going to miss you.
You are never far from my mind.
You stay in our hearts forever.

Love always;
Isnarti bte Yasni

7 weird facts/habits/things about me:

1) I have a diary. (means to show that I kept certain important things to myself.)

2)Lock myself in the room and read books. Reading books make me forget where I am.

3) People always get butterflies in their stomach when they are nervous. I get stomachache instead. Once I step inside the ladies, it gone.

4) I dont like any type of fish. I just dont like fish. Period.
I dont eat vegetables either. Oh and beef.
I only eat chicken! And certain seafood.

5) I fidget when Im angry or nervous.

6) When I get sooooooo frustrated, I cry. But without people seeing me.

7) Im plain weird! Love korean movies. korean series. Korean food. Korean music. Korean fashion. Korean language.
Anything I missed out?


7 unlucky people to do this:
1) Umairah
2) Yayah
3) Heedayu
4) Mushrafiq
5) Fannah
6) Hafizah
7) whoever loves being tagged

I found this interesting fact in this paticular book.
More or less link me to it.

I read this book just now and decided to share some facts to the people who have the same fate as me.
Being a left-handed.
Thus the title of my post.
The same title I found in the book.

Here it is.

"Many parents of left-handed children worry about this condition and wonder if ther shouldn`t try to correct it. The answer given by most authorities is: NO! If there is a strong preference for the left-handed, and the person is able to perform well with it, there sbould be no interference.
About four percent of the population is left-handed. In the course of history, many of the great geniuses have been left-handed!(*cough)
Leornado da Vinci and Michelangelo, the greatest sculptors of all times, were both left-handed.
Of course, we live in a "right-handed society" - that is, most of the things we use are made for the right-handed people. Our doorknobs, locks, screwdrivers, automobile, musical instrument - even the buttons on our clothes- a re arranged for the right-handed people. This may cause a certain amount of adjustment to be made by the left-handed people, but most of them can manage quite well. (*raise my hand)
There is no single accepted explanation of what makes most people right-handed and a small minority left-handed. Here is one theory: "The body is not'symmetrical', that is notexactly the same on both side. (*Gasps:True)
Our feet may differ a tiny bit in size(*Gasps again:So true)"

The rest I dont bother to type coz I dont know what the heck is this person talking about. "The left half of the brain is predominant over the right" Sorry!
Dont understand. My language usage are limited.

I cant belive it. No wonder I have difficulty wearing heels. Coz I probably be blistered all my life. No thank you.

All thanks to Umairah!

Where do i live?
Singapore

-Latest addiction?
Korean series Goong
(if that can be considered as addiction)

-Song that you're listening right now?
The Veronicas - When it all falls apart.

- What are you doing right now?
Typing.

- Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
My family. Nasi ayam penyet at changi

- If you were a toy, what would you be?
Barbie doll. Haha. No lah, my own version of Isnarti doll

- Where would you want to go on your honeymoon?
Korea. Where else?

- What's your ringtone?
The Veronicas - When it all falls apart

- What do you think a toblerone is?
Duh! Chocolate. I have half eaten one in my room right now.

- What are you wearing right now?
clothes. and towel wrap around my hair like a turban.

- Do you wear contacts?
Nope. Too chicken to wear them.
Besides, specs look good on me.

- What was the best advice ever given to you?
"Don`t give up and bully them back once the word trainee on your nametag is gone."
Thanks to adeeq.

- Can you drive?
Nope. And no thanks btw. With drivers like my dad, I prefer taking the public transport.

- What are your plans?
Stay till all my patience is gone. But meantime I probably going back to school next year. So pray that I get the course.

- Favourite film?
English got to be Harry Potter. *snicker*
Korean got to be My Tutor Friend & Innocent Steps. Oh and DAISY!

- Do you like to dance?
Yup. I love to. Take every opportunity when in secondary school.

- Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
Girls - Nope!! They are my friends. Why should I be shy? (*qns mark on my face)
Boys. Definitely! Eventhough we live in the 21st century, I`m still a bit old fashion when it come to this sort of things. And because of it, I lost my one & only opportunity. (*Yah, bile aku nak jumpe anak santorian?)*sob*

- Worst feeling in the world?
Not to be loved in return.

- Worst sound?
Probably when my sisters singing. Hahaha

- What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
Find my specs. I can`t live without them.

- Roller coaster, scary or exciting?
Scccarrryyy!

- How many times do you let the phone ring before you answer it?
Depends on who the caller is. But sometime Im quite deaf, so I probably have a lot of missed calls unless the phone is within my hearing range.

- Is the glass half full or half empty?
Half full. It better that or nothing at all.

- Your best physical feature?
My eyes? *shrug*

- Milk or white chocolate?
Can I have milk and chocolate without the white?

- Day or night?
Day.

- Summer or winter?
Summer.

- Cake or pie?
Both!

- Diamonds or pearls?
Pearls. I have lots of pearls accessories

- sunrise or sunset?
Sunset. (-_-)ZZZZZZ

- Have you ever broken a bone?
Nope. Never. But when I don`t want to go to school, I often wish I broke my hand.
That was when I was in primary school though. Childish thoughts.

- You hate people who are?
backstabber. backstabber. backstabber. And backstabber. ARGH!!!!!!

- Do you believe in fighting?
Nope. I prefer we sit down and talk.

- What skill do you wish you had?
None. I love me. Haha.
Can`t think of anything actually.

- Where are your favourite place?
My room.

- Who sent you last sms?
Starhub. About MMS&GPRS thingy.

- Last sms you sent to?
Fannah.

- Last person you talk to on the phone?
Fannah.

- Person whom you chatted with last night?
Yenni, my boss. And myself.
Yup, I talk to myself. (*shrug)

- Last photos you took with friends?
This year. Can`t remember.

- Any plans of going out?
Yup. today. going to town with fannah.

-What would you do after doing this bulletin?
Change clothes. Meeting fannah later.

- Last question: Your tag victims?
Azeanni, Lina and Mushrafiq.

Finally!!!
Its Over!!!!!!!