Okay. After so many agonizing days. Here I am again. Finally!

I am at work now. Using adek`s new laptop, wearing my new uniform, typing away. While all my colleagues were busy entertaining the audience. Haha.
(Yes Alex, I do have a blog. I thought you know. So now here you are. Mine is quite mundane leh. Now school holiday, can`t update blog.)

It started out quite badly actually. Haha. I was so excited about today that I woke up early just to make sure I`m on time. Guess what? Im not! I was half an hour late. Eventhough I reached here 3 mins after my appointed time, my pantyhose actually took most of the time. I bought the garter one instead of the one which is like a pants. It keep slipping off. I have to pin it to my shorts. Hahaha. I know it was supposed to be embarrasing but to my surprise, it wasn`t. I was laughing actually. My sister was embarrased. Hey it wasn`t my fault. I thought it could hold. My mistake.

Next, my shoe. I wore heels that I bought for my angklung performance. Still fit though but hurt my foot. I could barely walk after 2 hours of walking. But I can`t really show it. I need to be classy. Thats what my RM said. Can`t wait next week for my pay. Can buy better and confortable shoe.

I didn`t know that I have the privileges as being an SA. I got my own pigeon hole. (Every manager has one) I can read mcwebs mail which means email but in Mcdonalds language. I can even write comms book. A book where all managers read and write. Hahaha. It was exciting actually. But once I open up the mcweb mails, I almost fall asleep. I don`t understand most of what they were talking about.

Finally, I have a friend who were as freaky as me. Okay. Not a freak as in a freak. A freak as in Harry Potter freak. LOUIS! hahaha. He loves Harry Potter as much as I do. We plan to watch the movie at Omni-max Theater. But 13 bucks each. Think twice. There is a Huge cardboard poster of Harry Potter near the Science Center entrance. Can`t wait till 17 november. But do SSC sell nachos?

I wonder if Louise remember to bring Half-blood prince on tuesday. I hope he brings it. I `ve been dying to get my hands on it. More likely my eyes instead of hands. Counting down till the days.

Now I want to teach adek how to blog. I have a new name to add to my tag. Haha.
If I can`t make it before Raya, "Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin" to all my friends. May Allah bless you.

The month of october is the most exhausting month ever.
In the past three weeks, 3 of my relatives were admitted to the hospital. Various hospitals at that.

First relative was my grandmother on my father side. The hospital she went to was Singapore General Hospital. She was due to a knotted intestine or something. My mom and dad went back and forth countless times. I followed them twice. Lucky we went there by car. Or I will run out of pocket money.

Next was my uncle on my father side. He was admitted due to High Blood Pressure, Diabetes and Heart Attack. But this time we went by bus. This happened during my exam week. So no choice, since others were busy, left me to accompany mom to Alexandra Hospital. To make it worst, it was the fasting month. I felt like my energy were sipped out by those arrogant doctors and nurses. I should have known better than follow my mom. Biggest mistake I have ever done. Don`t want to elaborate much. I dragged about celebrating Hari Raya.

Next relative makes me cry when I visited her. She was my Great-grandmother on my mother side. She is 85 years old. Her granddaughter(My aunt) took care of her since her own children abandoned her. That includes my grandmother. When I enter the ward. there was a big crowd of nurses crowding at this particular bed. Then I notice the nurse was talking to my aunt. Then I realized that it was my great-gradnmother. She was sitting side ways holding on the the railing of her bed. Then the nurse said to my aunt that if my great-grandma wont sit still the have to bind her to the bed. Tie her up like some prisoner. As I was sentimental and soft hearted, just the sight of her makes me want to cry. Even now when I think about it. When she`s lying down, she have difficult turning herself to adjust herself to make her feel comfortable. Those needles and tube at her hand came off when I want to "salam" her. A nurse take a tape to keep it in place. But instead my grandme thought that they want to inject her again. She said to my aunt "Tengok Ti, dier nak cocok aku lagi." It was so child like that I almost cry again. Then my aunt reprimand her not to get up without assistance from nurse. She took it as if she was reprimand for stealing a cookie. Again, my heart fail to hardened. Eventhough, I was always mistaken for my sister. I never hold any grudges against her for that. After all she my great-grandma.
When we was about to left the ward, my grandma said, come back tomorrow. But she look like she don`t us to go. She look so scared. In 85 years of her life, she was never admitted to the hospital till now. To make it worst, the doctor suspected that she might have cancer. How worst could it ever get? I feel like crying right now. So, guys if I can`t "buka" with you guys on Monday, I would like to apologize. Sorry. Some other time then.
Take care.

Okay.
Thats it.
My life is totally over.
Well, technically.
Connection wise that is.
My outgoing calls and sms had been cut off.
Soon, my entire line will be cut off.
And when that happen, I tell ya. Or when I never reply, that when you know my life is over.
Too dramatic, am I?

I`ve been feeling not well lately. My head throbs like mad.
Even when I`m staring at the screen now, Im seeing stars.
And I think the class light is too bright. It hurts my eyes and my brain.
I think I need to swallow some asprin later in the evening.

Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire is coming out soon. I can`t wait for it to open in cinemas. I look at the posters they hang at Jurong Entertainment, feel like I want to steal those poster that have Rupert Grint in it. Ron Weasley is my favourite character in all stories. He is so cute. With that red hair of his. But I still prefer him in sorcerer stone and the chamber of secrets. He`s all grown up now. Whats with that long hair of his. Oh and besides Ron Weasly, I love Oliver Wood as well. The Captain of Gryffindor. *sigh.

Im so sure nobody wants to accompany me watch the movie. None of my sisters are as crazy as I am. I haven`t even bought the latest Harry Potter book, "Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince" I want to know whether Sirius Black really dies or not.
Sooooo, Harry Potter anyone?

Yesterday was the most humiliating and embarrasing day of this year.
Im not going to say my life coz I`ve yet to come across anything that is more embarrasing and humiliating than this.
Im not elaborating anything on this blog.
Just thought that I must penned it down to remind me of this horrendous day.

Today is the first day of a fasting month.
Many challenges came my way.
Mom nag at 5 in the morning.
Can you believe?
I wake 4.30 for sahur and ended up not only eating food but have to swallow my comeback. Not only tiring but excruciating else well.
Then, I was reading a book when a bunch of clothes went flying over my head.
I turn and said, SO RUDE! A few of them knock me head.
I mean it rude enough people throw your clothes but that doubles up went the aim was almost perfect. Damn!
Seriously, this fasting month is prove to be challenging. Testing my patient and my wit. But hey, I never say I was impatient.

Monday went to Seoul Garden. And I have to wait for a bunch of people for almost 2 hours. But it my fault. I reached there early.
Too early perhaps.
Meet them at 5.30. I reached at 3. Haha. Yup, very patient.
Walk aimlessly around. Nothing attracts my attention. Maybe it because I got no money at that time I guess.
I can`t wait for sunset. Yum Yum! Food! Hmm!
I wonder what I`m going to eat today?
Grilled Chicken Foldover?

Not!

Reached early today.
I reached 15 mins early. Who cares.
I went to the library in the morning. Thinking that Puasa is around the corner, I went to borrow books to occupied myself during those moments where all you can think about is food.
Too bad I can only borrow 4.
Forgot to ask my sis her library card.
Why can`t they just let me used it since they don`t?

Now in class.
Doing nothing.
Just finish my survey.
Mr Goh wanted to teach us but there are only few students came in.
It about only 5 of us. But the number is increasing. So maybe he will teach us. If not, he let us go early. I can`t go early coz my manager/friend is going to treat us Seoul Garden. I haven`t try Seoul Garden before. So here is the chance before fasting. And I hope that it materialized.

Liyana go back already. Left me, yaya, choy and azzahar and some chinese guys and girl. I can`t go back now. Still early. 5.15 meet at Jurong Point.

Maybe I should hunt for new skin. But I love my current skin. So maybe I used it for a long while. Now it raining heavy cats and dogs. The class is turning to be an igloo in a minute or two. Lucky bring my sweater along. But damn I never bring any pants. I wearing skirt now. Freaking cold in the train.

I just went to Lost website, they already have season 2! I wonder how long are they stranded there? Season 1 seems like forever. But I love Dominic Monaghan. My favourite hobbits among the four. I love him in Lord of the Rings Trilogy. I love him now in Lost. Just love the way he talk. Those british accent of his. sigh*

It takes forever till 5.15. I`m hungry already. (*grumpy*)

Im not so sure but I think my working life is getting better and better.
I got a promotion. First they tell me that I can be a CL.
Then, they drop the bomp and told me that I probably won`t get that promotion coz they want to promote me to SA. I can either choose SA or CL. You know what SA is?

I tell ya.
It Service Ambassador.
A rank below Floor Manager, above Crew Leader.
Well that`s what my 1st Assistant Manager said.
I was quite happy to get that promotion. But when I talk to Christy (a CL btw) she said she prefer CL rank than SA. Now, Im in dilemma. Which one to choose?
But SA pay higher than CL..
SIGH*

Whatever. I work my butt off today. Thinking that Ramadan is just around the corner. I need that money for the coming Hari Raya. To eat at the bazzar what else.
So work 8 hours straight for two consecutive weekends. Hope my wish is fulfilled by early next month. Now trying to upload my ripway. I don`t know why I can`t put Fall Out Boy song, Pretty in Punk and The Music or The Misery.

What the *toot*!

Error! Whaaat. This sucks man. Tomorrow got Network Fundamental. Feel like sitting at home all day long. But think twice. You know, I know. My ears to delicate at the moment. So if my mom nag, I go deaf. haha. Just kidding, mom!

I think I need to shut my eye now. Barely open. Ciaoz.

Have a Bueno Nachos Day!