Okay.
I am such a total klutz.
It freaking me out.
Talk to haslizah about it. She laugh her head off.
It enough to know that Im such a clumsy person. Doesn`t need my friend to laugh at me. Argghh!
I have such a very low self-esteem.
I can`t believe it. I have a lot in my mind. I don`t need to add more fuel to the fire. I sure my friends were embarrassed to have me as their friend. I`m such a creep.

Okay.
Go ahead and laugh. Im sure you have done a lot of embarrasing thing in your life.
Maybe much worst than mine. You probably done something that cause you your pride.
Or maybe ego. or maybe - Whatever!

I hate myself right now. Im so sentimental. Im so dreamy. Im so fussy. Im so stupid. Im so childish. Im so embarrassed. Im so clumsy. Im so freaky. Im so thick skinned. Im so not-liking myself right now.

I dont need.... Im not gonna finish that sentence. Gotta keep it to myself. And only one of my friend knows the whole sentence. Thanks for giving me advice on that particular touchy, sore subject.

DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE!

I got promoted! Yeah!

Hope so!

Okay! That`s it!
I`m a Klutz! A total klutz.
I admit it.

I planned with Fannah to go town today. When reached there it was totally plain. Nothing fun going around. It was so dull that we couldn`t stay at one place for a few minutes. Well except at Far East. We were walking round and round but found nothing that attracts me. It repels me rather than appealing. We were walking down the particular aisle when this particular couple bang onto Fannah`s bag who bang onto my bag in return. I was like - who the hell was that, that have such a huge bum that can cause two bags two collide? It appears that this particular "MAT" is talking to this particular "MINAH" a.k.a his girlfriend. Oh Please! At least have some manners DUDE! Im sure your mom teach you how to say sorry when you were a kid. Lucky Fannah`s laptop doesn`t kiss the floor. Or there will be hell to pay. A lot of bands jamming here and there. Making it difficult for me to hear what my sis talk over the phone.

When the boringness getting more duller(if there is such words), we went to esplanade, listen to the band played, and feeling the breeze. We even got time to took photo there. But can`t post it since it was not so called develop yet. Hahaha! Yeah rite. Only old school people use the film type. Now it so high tech, it only need a memory card to store photos. Then we walk to fullerton hotel pass by clarke quay. Well actually clark quake is on the other side, so it also consider the same. Whatever! Then got on the train and went home. So far it fun coz we were dissing the boys all the time. Got a lot of example here and there. So never run out of topic.
Well, gotta go home now. Don`t want my mom to bite my head off! Ciaoz!

To Yaya - Yes! Its loud. But it okay. Got one week to get over it. Hahaha. Be happy my friend.

Hmmmmphh! Today I was called to work. Replace one of my colleague since she was unable to come. Quite tiring coz there were tons of students coming in and out of the science centre. My feet bare the consequences. I was limping my way around the house. Maybe I should sleep on it to make it better. The burn mark on my hand are getting more obvious. And more painful. Everytime my beads bangle rub against the burn, the pain is bearable. Like as if I was sting by a bee. My siblings are laughing the hearts out watching HOMERUN on SCV. My mom just come out of her room and reprimand them to lower down their laughter. Imagine that. Lower down your laughter. What a picture!

I will be buying an MP3 soon. Probably - No! Hopefully by end of next month. I will like to buy Zen Micro. Either white, grey or pink. Those are the only colors that I find nice looking. Others are to vibrant. White is still classic.

Two more days till school reopen. Can`t wait. Teacher`s day is around the corner. Plan with Fannah to go back to JVSS to eat instead of wishing teachers "happy teacher`s day". Missed the food there. Especially the Mee Bandung, the ayam.
(*Saliva dropping). Can`t wait for the day.
Well folks gotta go. Can`t use the comp for to long. Not mine anyway. See you guys when school reopen. To others, see you when I update my blog again. Don`t forget to tag me hor! ;)

PS: Miss my James! Hahaha! Where he go?

This song been ringing in my head. Thought share it with you guys.
Title : Sugar, We`re going down
Artist : Fall Out Boy

"Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it"

Im on one week vacation right now. Feeling so sentimental about everything. Plan to go East Coast with Yaya but then Change plans because I`m totally broke. No money to ride bike. So, I tell the truth though embarrased but she understands.
I burn my hand today. Trying to meet the estimated time. I was involved in a large order today. 3 to be exact. Today was the most tiring day of the week.
Supposed to meet my friend tomorrow. Plan everything. Looking forward to it after no free time since I was busy working. She changed her mind. Probably going out with boyfriend. What is it with girls and their boyfriend anyway? Okay, I know how it feels when you have a boyfriend, but you need to prioritize yourself. I mean you plan with your friends first but then changed the last minute "coz my boyfriend want to meet me". Oh come on. Other people do have boyfriend but they don`t neglect their friends. It was really hard for me to have a free time to actually hang out with my friends. Have to work all the time. Why can`t they just see that? I mean not like as if you don`t have any other day. That was the only day I`m available. And she ruin it back making plans with her "boyfriend". Even If I have boyfriends, my friends always comes first. Coz boys come and go. Friends stays forever. Well, maybe she just don`t appreciate her friends. Her friend whom she knows 15 years ago.

It been almost two weeks. To those who know me will know what I mean.
Funny, that I even count the days. I mean - who am I to actually went looking anyway.
It getting worst than I expected. Well, trying to cool myself down.
Whatever it is, try to get over the fact that is not really my destiny to actually dream about it. Or more correctly, it not my place to dream anyway.
Since I got nothing to say. I better log off now. Anyong hi ka sae yo.

OH MY GOD! I`m so freaking tired. I could barely walk my way to the bus station on my way home from school. Was talking to a friend of mine yesterday, about his NS life. Told me he had to run with heavy clothes and carrying tons of weight which total up to minimum of 10kg. Crazy or what. Sheesh! Lucky Im a girl. But still.. Today got NAPFA test. I barely made the 2.4km. I did run those 7 and 1/4 rounds. But exceeded a bit of the time limit. Probably a few minutes behind. Before that, we got sit up (pass = 35), sit & reached (pass = 35), standing board jump (Pass = 160), Inclined arm sumting (pass = 15), shuttle run (pass = 10.7s). PHEW! First time in my life. I pass all those station minus the 2.4km.
When I board the train, I took this seat next to an Indian guy. I was wondering why was it empty since most seats were occupied. Now I know why. He was sleeping and keep on banging to me. I was like, "Wake up man. Don`t embarrassed yourself!". The second time he bump onto me, I turn and look at him. He look back feeling embarrased. I think he said sorry but I can`t hear him since I was listening to my discman. Non chalantly, I turn back with no expression on my face. I guess from then on, he TRIED avoid bumping onto me. Lucky the train was packed with people or they will see how bitchy I can be. I wish SMRT will banned people from sleeping
Sinced I was so tired, I took my time walking bakc from the MRT Station to my house. In between the journey, there is this inconsiderate Chinese lady who took her dog out for a walk and almost ran the dog onto me. You know Muslims can`t get near a dog for any matter. What the heck man! So much for racial harmony. People should understand others religion. That makes the world at peace! I was so pissed off that I bang onto this particular stool the government place in a park. What is it with me and bumping.
Im feeling like a deflated balloon. I could barely type.
OH GOD! I hear a grumbling sound! What was it?
Oh, I know. My stomach. Trying to tell me to fill it all up.
Well ciaoz! Need to feed my belly.

My tiredness haven`t wear off yet.
A lot has been happening lately. Just can`t keep up with the world. All I want to do is sleep and sleep and sleep. Hardly had a shut eye in the train today. People keep on knocking to me. Am I that invincible or what?
I`m in class. So far I see, Im the only girl in class. I think the girls never come to class. Probably got silat training yesterday. So too tired to go to school. Even KhaliffAH is not here today. Wonder what got into him? Im hungry but since the guys are not here, I wont be going to the canteen. Are you crazy going to the canteen ALONE?
I just text them. They are on the way. Wokey! Now I can eat. And now I hope I can see. It getting dark outside. Never bring my sweater to school. Thought today of all day won`t RAIN. My mistake. Im going to freeze my butt off on the train ride home. Hermi is here today. Not a shock to me. He come and he goes. He rarely show his face in school. Wonder what motivates him to come for a day?
I`m working today. Don`t know what time. Thought I should come early so I can eat and got no break. I keep on yawning and it look ugly when a girl yawn like that.
Yayah just step into the class. Yeah!
Nothing else to write. So I just zoink off. Bye! Take Care! Thank you and Have a nice day. Annyong hi-ka seyo!

Got bac from KL three days ago. Got no tme to update. Too busy.
It was a fun trip but ripped my pocket entirely. Bouhgt a lot of stuff. There were fighting as per usual. But got over it soon.
So tired right now.
Yesterday went to Jurong East to celebrate our National Day. Our whole family wear red to the parade. The spirit were there. Enjoy the fireworks it was cool. We was standing right in front of an open space where they had stand by all fireworks. I was witing for the moment to come. But soon we get restless. I was just about to say "Where is the fireworks" when suddenly they exploded in my face. I mean not exactly in my face but just right in front of me. It was beautiful. We was screaming at the fireworks show.

This pic is one of the fireworks that I`ve taken with my cellphone.



Did I mention I bought Full House OST when I was in Malaysia?


Every video shop we went, they all play the same thing. Full House. Looks like they are getting famous. COOOLLL!

I just got back from 'Candy Break'. Our impersonation of break or secondary version of recess. Liyana and I were sitting in the canteen sipping our Iced Milo and chewing our 'chewing gum' when the OAC member came. OAC stands for Outdoor Adventure Club. Yayah was not here, by the way. She didn`t attend classes today. While those guys were talking to Liyana, i just keep quite since I didn`t know them that well. Kwei Keong notice it and say I look lost. ]
How could I possible be lost when I`m actually sitting in the canteen surrounded by people. Im still there aren`t I?
He notice it for a few minutes and exaggerate a bit. Im not lost, Keong! Im just not that keen to talk to strangers. Well, not exactly strangers, just someone I hardly know.
Now Khaliff-ah keep on saying that Im a lost girl. Im not an actress. I couldn`t possibly be "LOST". It aired on every thursday at 10 if you catch my drift.
Well, today is probably the last day of this week to go to school. I`m off to almost familiar land tomorrow. I already pack my bag. Just hope that this trip is worth it. All the currency changing is put on a good use. After drinking my Milo, I feel quite sleepy. Haven`t see him the whole day. Well, who cares? I think I`ll get over it soon. Pray so!

Get back to you in four days time. Take Care and God Bless!

Wow! I just enter my Korean club and realize I got a friend who is a Singaporean who is crazy about Rain as I am. And she said, Rain is coming to Singapore but don`t know when. Oh my God. I can`t wait.

Anyway, Im in class right now. Totally forget that our Prime Minister, Lee Hsien Loong is coming to our school, ITE COLLEGE CENTRAL (MACPHERSON). Lots of bodyguards and FBI clones here. Yesterday, our Class Advisor, Mr Samuel, ask we all to clear our locker for the day. Because the blue ant wanted to check whether we have BOMB in our school. We? ITE student? Put a bomb in the school? God, so shallow. We went to every floor to find a replacement for a day. Got the locker at Level 5, block D.
Block D? Hehehe! Who`s there?

Heard from my friends that police were everywhere in our school. Tearing up our lockers to check for threats against our Important Guest or should I say V.I.P.

"My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you."