I want to quit!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im angry at the world right now.
Im just soooo angry that I could cry this minute.
Since accepting my promotion, life have been hell for me.


Firstly, people dislike me for that. Saying stuff behind my back. Well, if you want to say it, say it to my face. I don`t need any backstabbers. I have enough of it in my life.


Secondly, people took me for granted. They never really appreciate what I did. Rushing me to do stuff last minute. Expect me to do an excellent job that needs at least 5 people to finish it up. But never recognize that until they receive compliment from the big boss. Then they will say that I`ve done a good job. Otherwise they just throw my effort in the dustbin. To others, maybe I was being a bitch about it. But put yourself in my position. I was under a lot of pressure plus the fact that I don`t have proper training of being SA. And also the fact that none is stated that I need to decorate the store for just some useless temporary promotion. I could see that some of the manager is not satisfied with the job I`ve done. Maybe the previous SA could do it better with no complain. Go ahead and call her back. I rest my case!


Thirdly, if you are not sincerely in helping me. Then don`t!


Fourthly, if you don`t want to talk to me about it, then DON`T talk. I don`t give a damn about your excuses. So what if you both kept secret from us. Whispering at the corner between yourself. When I asked what is it, you say that you promise to tell later. But when ask again. Replied nothing. Fine! You don`t want to say it than I don`t mind. It better you don`t. No need to burden me with your secrets.


Fifthly, if you are angry with someone, don`t vent it on me. So what if you take over her line coz she need to go to hospital? So what if she take her time to do so?
There`s no need to slam your bag and hurl all those words, that were meant for her, to me. If you compare your tiredness with me? Whose more tired? You, who just have off yesterday and work for 8 hours today? Or me? Who don`t have off AND have to work 8 hours a day standing, which most of the days hit overtime? Plus the fact that Im not that appreciated by someone.


Six, Im beginning to realize that favouritism runs in my workplace. So what if she is your blue eyed girl? There`s no need to treat her so special. Pay her double pay just because the fact that she have to cut short her fun at Pasir Ris. She doesnt treat people equally. I don`t want Meimei to go. If she go, no one will stood up for me. Well, I have my sis, who will be gone soon, but people will say she stood up for me coz we are related. Have Adeeq but she is too soft-hearted to stood up for me. My only hope is Meimei. I wish so hard that her being transfered is cancelled.


Seven, people at home thought I went to work to for fun. Didn`t know what Im going through now. I think Im being abused verbally and emotionally.


Im being sensitive now. Due to the fact that Im under pressure. Im feeling a bit depress as well. Work place got problem, at home as well. Plus my friends too. Isn`t it a bit too harsh for me?

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:


You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.


The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:


You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.


Your readiness to commit to a relationship:


You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.


The seriousness of your love:


You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.


Your views on education


Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.


The right job for you:


You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.


How do you view success:


You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.


What are you most afraid of:


You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.


Who is your true self:


You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Guess who this is? Isn`t he cute? He is none other than Chris Klein. Yup! The same guy who Katie Holmes dated for almost 4 years and engage for 3 years but in the end dump him for another older, wrinkle and definite not charming guy who divorce stunning Nicole Kidman. Seriously, I think both of them are blind. If I have Chris Klein, I wouldn`t let him go. Never ever. A girl can dream, can she?


After going through the difficulty of changing my skin, I decided that I`m content with my new skin. No changes needed for awhile. Changes as in, new skin. But I probably upload some pictures to make my blog look more "Harry Fanatic". Hahaha.
Well, I guess my "Potter Fever" have not died down yet. Same goes for my flu.


Right now I`m shivering to my toes. Part due to cold, part due to nerve. We are having a short quiz now. A quiz that will be graded.
My turn has past. I did it 2 mins. I just have to follow the instruction on the book.

But something get to me just now. Im not sure why but guys tend to make girls feel like an idiot. It happen to me just now. Not because of hate-love thing, but more like jokes among themselves about us. Especially if we girls did or say something wrong. I wonder what so amusing about what we said. If it were funny, then maybe their jokes are lame. Lamer than I expect them will be. Im not going to say who or what that person did. I just tend to keep it to myself. If I can`t take it, I wrote it in my blog or my "more" personal diary.
I`ve decided that wont take this laying down, especially not from opposite sex. They tend to get on my nerve lately. But I can`t retaliate back. Not at the moment. Not if Im a girl.
I mean seriously, like Christina Aguilera said,
"So what am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I be quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me a bitch cos I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled!"

My all time favourite song. My theme song if anything brings me down. Like right now. If you want to know when Im pissed off, it when I keep quiet at all times. Not even a word is uttered.
I`ve realized a long time ago that I wil never understand the opposite sex. But then again they will never understand me.

"I'm really not that boring,
I'm headstrong,
And annoying
So I don't see me fitting in your world,
I'm noisy and I'm messy,
Plus you would never get me,
hey I think you're really hot,
But I'm Not Your Girl"

It 2.39 in the morning. Im supposed to be sleeping now coz I`ll be working in the later part of the day. Im going to have a massive headache soon.
So, please don`t blame me if Im grumpy. Since this is the only opportunity I`ve got, I should seize it, shouldn`t I?

Well, my best friend is at MALACCA now. Her vacation with her family.
While I just got back from mine.

Went to KL last friday. Came back on Monday.
Missed one day of school. I really feel bad about that coz that is my project day. But luckily my team mates are understanding.

One thing you can expect from this trip is - quarelling.
If we were to participate in Amazing Race, I think we will be like the Paolo family.
Bickering all the time. And we will probably be eliminate first among the group.
Mom and dad got heads on about the board sign. Sisters bickering about the fact that the parents is quarelling. And so on.

It happen everytime we were on the road. Me reading the map, they finding signboards. Wrong turn, verbally challenge. But so far, it quite a pleasant journey.
But the moment I reached KL, I wish I was here. In Singapore.

But pushing aside the fear for our safety, we have fun taking pics here and there and putting on weight.
Especially me. Never full. Always wanting to munch something. Even before going to bed. While the rest getting ready for bed, Im at the table, finding food for my growling stomach.

Oh, and I lost my sock. Went to sleep wearing them since I already experience the coldness of the hotel room at night. But when I woke up the next day, My left side of the sock missing. Can`t find it anywhere. Ther goes my Baleno socks. Well, not mine actually. My sister`s. Haha.

Im feeling so lethargic right now.
After the game we had, I`ll be surprise if Im not tired.
We had an exciting game which exceeded the time. Two hours for Floorball.
Thats shiok man. Hahaha
We even have half time. Okay not exactly half more like 5 mins break. Then we play again.

The first game had a lot of body impact. I trip on Liyana a few times. Then I accidentally hit Yaya, hard. Seriously, floorball is a very dangerous game. I`ve been hit a couple of time as well. First by Rhyno, he smack the ball coz he aim for goal, but actually hit my arm instead. Still got red marks to prove it.
Second by Choy. He hit my leg instead. Same goes for the marks. Still visible but I don`t complain.

But what I still don`t get it is why ABG PIZZA likes to play solo while actually in the first place it needs team work. Such a show off. Hmmph!
Being revengeful, I smack his leg. WOOHOOO for me!
"Kids don`t try this at home. It very dangerous"

Haha. It was fun. The most fun game ever. The teacher is the best.

MR TAHIR, you`re the best. I won`t forget you. Please take our class back next year.
Sadly for us, this is the last Sports and Wellness class we had. No more for the past 4 weeks. Damn!

Well, hope Yaya and Liyana plans to go swimming come true. Well, girls. We can start planning for that as well as our project.

Im soooo not tired. *YAWN*

It confirm that my sickness is not going away.
Im coughing my throat out actually. Almost throw up.
But lucky I never eat breakfast. Or else.
Im thinking about going to doctor but I prefer to save my money.

Met someone today. My old-old friend from Princess Elizabeth Primary School.
I was surprised that he remember me. He came to me while I was sitting down at Jurong East platform.

He`s going to East Coast to chill. Thats what he said. And I told him he could get heat stroke if he stay too long. But he alighted at Lavender coz he wanted to renew his passport.
We talk about olden days mostly. About who he still in touch with. Vice versa.
It was nice meeting him.

Well, I need to discuss my project now. So, later!

From the moment I step in the class till 9 in the morning.
Only two of us were in the class. Liyana and me.
By 9, Yaya came. She woke up let. So theres only 5 of us in the class now. How pathetic is that? Me, Liyana, Yaya, Kim Han and Koon Koon.
Since it is such a nice weather to sleep. Maybe they are forgiven. Maybe.

I`ve realize that I`m beginning to dislike some of my colleagues.
I don`t know what irks me to think that way. But I do.
They tend to get on my nerve sometimes but I keep it cool.
What they thought is a joke is actually an insult to me.

I`ve just realize that they just show me their real colours.
Well now, I realize that I don`t care what they think of me.
I just don`t give a damn.

"I don`t give a damn.
I don`t give a damn.
What you think about that."

I love that song by Avril Lavigne.

That`s it. My life couldn`t get any worst.
Stop bothering me.
He need to get a life.
How dare he pretend that I was just another friend he came across!
He even have the cheek to get close to me. Or worst, even talk to me.

WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS?

He is the most worthless scumbag I have ever come across in this entire universe.
He even have the cheek to get angry with me coz I wouldn`t even talk to him.
Well, asshole, take that for all the pain you cost me.
Even if he was the last guy on earth, I wouldn`t even want to date him again.
Just the thought of it repels me.
Plus you gave the creeps to date another guy.

I apologize to all those who don`t deserve to hear my ramblings. I just need to get it of my chest before my head explode with all this... this... this words I have to describe him now.

Nice seeing you again? Dude, you are sooooooo not charming!!!

Do you think we can work things again? Which movie did you rip the script off?
Closer?

Heard of the movie GET OVER IT? You should watch it. It good for your stinking soul.

When a guy cheated on you, do you think that the girl will came crawling back at you?This is real life. It won`t happen that way. You need to wake up and grow up.
I want nothing to do with the likes of you.

This is what happen when that person get on my bad side. That person will never hear another good word from me for a veeeerrrryyyyy long time. Good luck for those who accomplish it. I give you a nice badge if I could :
"THE WORST SNOB I HAVE EVER COME ACROSS".

Tears of frustration threaten to fall. So forgive me if I end this hate-post just like that. I need to compose myself.
SHUFFIAN! STAY AWAY FROM ME!!


PS: Yaya, is that guy name Firdaus? Hakim`s friend?

The school computer is really pissing me off.
The connection is so slow.
That I have to wait for full 5 mins just to reach the next page.
For instance, my post. I wanted to update my blog since 8.17 in the morning but since Mr Fu decided to cut off the internet connection, we`ve got no choice but to wait till lesson started. No games, No net. How pathetic is that?

I think today is gonna start badly. Not surprisingly, it does.
First of all, I lost my lip gloss. I don`t know who took my make up kit but the moment I found it back, I couldn`t find my Maybeline lip gloss. I can`t go to school without wearing it. But I have no choice.
Secondly, since my dad sent me to the nearest mrt station, I thought I should save whatever battery left on my MP3 for my trip to school. Disappointedly, the moment I switch it on, empty batt figure appear on the screen. I was so disappointed that I almost skip school. How the hell can I go to school without my Zen Neeon MP3??? But since I was absent from school for 2 days, I decided to walk through hell without my companion.

What a mistake it was. The moment I reached the overhead bridge, I regret not putting on my MP3, with music or not. This 2 fat goons were walking in front of me, taking their own sweet time. Like as if their dad build the bridge. Since their size are big, they almost took up the whole space that I, who much more skinnier than them, couldn`t get through. Luckily their skinny friend told them that I was exactly right behind them. So, trying to act cute, the more slimer-than-his-friend guy, say "Oh so sorry!"
I ignore them completely. I just walk past them and I heard one of them say that, Im patient person. I was like, Hey that was my line.

Jerk. Well gotta go. Bye!